I've been reflective of my experiences here in San Diego. The opportunities that have come, and also those that did not. I've made some complaints, sometimes with humor, sometimes in anger.
But one thing I'm choosing to do is spend the time with The Lord. I'm using my writing to remind myself that there are so many things that He has His Hands on in my life. Today's sermon at North Coast Church reminded me that I need to spend this time to thank God for what changes are happening daily.
First, "Pray Boldly, But Accept Humbly." I moved here asking for unprecedented favor. For my life, for my children, dealing with divorce. Once the change began to happen, I didn't see The Lord's response the right way. Living in faith, I was confused. I used words like, "I deserve...It should be...That's not fair...That's not right!"
Contentment is coping with what is, accepting what can't be changed. Perspective. I'm living in one of the most beautiful cities on earth. I get to spend time with my brother, who I think is an amazing person. I get to hang out with my dad, who I had a terrible relationship with as a youth, but now I get to honor as an adult. I get real FaceTime with my mom, who reminds me everyday to continue my walk in faith and God's word. I talk with my aunt, and hear her words in new and inspired ways.
Contentment is learned, not acquired.
I have jobs that are allowing me to step away from an unrealistic dream and goal, and just learn to enjoy working under and for people with a heart for service. I get to see, through observing others, my flaws and strengths, and the things I can work on to reflect God working in my life.